I had the weirdest dream last night:
I was in California but the Salt Lake City Temple was randomly in the middle of a shopping center. Everybody was dressed up because two of my cousins were in the Temple: one getting married, and the other receiving her endowments. We were all waiting at the doors so we could cheer when they came out, but then two of my friends from high school came out of the doors first--carrying a Christmas tree with all its lights and ornaments. Then they ran in and got more! I was so confused. First of all, they were wearing clubbing clothes in the temple and second, where were they getting these Christmas trees?! Next my brother and his wife came out, also carrying a Christmas tree. Then my cousin who was receiving her endowments came out (in really short shorts), we cheered and then my next cousin and her new husband came out (also dressed in really short shorts... not even a wedding dress) followed by my uncle who wasn't carrying a Christmas tree but instead a HUGE tree trunk. I remembered thinking that this was the strangest tradition, especially since my uncle just had knee surgery and shouldn't be carrying such a heavy load. Eventually, everybody dispersed. I remember my cousin who just got married saying that she was going to Disneyland. I decided to go shopping.
The first store I went in had really cute skirts - 2 for $1. Apparently I had bought my little sister one and I wanted to go in and buy one for myself, but they didn't have my size. The next store I went in was called "Allister"--it was full of baby clothes. I was there with my older sister who's pregnant and we were just perusing when I saw my x-boyfriend. He responded with "Here come the Alexander sisters!". I walked past him and then screamed back, "We aren't Alexanders anymore!" (referencing the fact that we had both gotten married) I kept walking, and thought to myself, "I'm so glad this is a dream so I can go back and change what I just said." So I rewound my dream a bit, re-entered (this time knowing I'd run into my X) and just completely ignored him. Silent treatment was much more deserving. He kept following me throughout the store and then told me he could never forgive himself for what he did to me until I had forgiven him. I was furious. I just thought about how selfish he was and how much I hated him and how I didn't care if he felt bad for the rest of his life. After thinking about all the things I wanted to say, all I could muster was that he is the biggest regret of my life. Then I left.
He followed me up the road a ways and then just stopped. I wanted to be alone, so my sister took a taxi cab back to the hotel and I was on my own.
Then I woke up.
I was in California but the Salt Lake City Temple was randomly in the middle of a shopping center. Everybody was dressed up because two of my cousins were in the Temple: one getting married, and the other receiving her endowments. We were all waiting at the doors so we could cheer when they came out, but then two of my friends from high school came out of the doors first--carrying a Christmas tree with all its lights and ornaments. Then they ran in and got more! I was so confused. First of all, they were wearing clubbing clothes in the temple and second, where were they getting these Christmas trees?! Next my brother and his wife came out, also carrying a Christmas tree. Then my cousin who was receiving her endowments came out (in really short shorts), we cheered and then my next cousin and her new husband came out (also dressed in really short shorts... not even a wedding dress) followed by my uncle who wasn't carrying a Christmas tree but instead a HUGE tree trunk. I remembered thinking that this was the strangest tradition, especially since my uncle just had knee surgery and shouldn't be carrying such a heavy load. Eventually, everybody dispersed. I remember my cousin who just got married saying that she was going to Disneyland. I decided to go shopping.
The first store I went in had really cute skirts - 2 for $1. Apparently I had bought my little sister one and I wanted to go in and buy one for myself, but they didn't have my size. The next store I went in was called "Allister"--it was full of baby clothes. I was there with my older sister who's pregnant and we were just perusing when I saw my x-boyfriend. He responded with "Here come the Alexander sisters!". I walked past him and then screamed back, "We aren't Alexanders anymore!" (referencing the fact that we had both gotten married) I kept walking, and thought to myself, "I'm so glad this is a dream so I can go back and change what I just said." So I rewound my dream a bit, re-entered (this time knowing I'd run into my X) and just completely ignored him. Silent treatment was much more deserving. He kept following me throughout the store and then told me he could never forgive himself for what he did to me until I had forgiven him. I was furious. I just thought about how selfish he was and how much I hated him and how I didn't care if he felt bad for the rest of his life. After thinking about all the things I wanted to say, all I could muster was that he is the biggest regret of my life. Then I left.
He followed me up the road a ways and then just stopped. I wanted to be alone, so my sister took a taxi cab back to the hotel and I was on my own.
Then I woke up.
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